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Wednesday, November 25, 2009, 9:36 AM
The old is better than the new, brings back all the memories over again.


It was bound to happen somehow.
But i let it all be just like that. I couldnt foresee why we cant be the same like we use to. I miss the way we talk and even be there for one another.
Some say that we'll last. Haish. Think again? Not sure why i said that.
Some say they'll be there no matter what. I hope so.
Still i love you humans.







Im not your miss perfect and neither i am your toy to play around with.

Lets just say that i am exhausted. From dance to complicated stuff that im dealing with now. I wish that i would have superpowers that could travel through time. Stop whenever you need to breathe. Yes. I need to take a very very deep breath. Cause i never had the chance to embrace things around me. Never had the chance to appreciate things that really meant alot to me. Im just to ego to even look back. Pride takes over? Im not sure. I dont even understand. Do you? Define pride please. Or is it call fear? I never could admit the feelings. All that i do is pleasing others. I know, i care other humans than myself. I am happy if they are(:


As i was saying, im getting sick. Maybe because i do not have enough sleep. Haiyalah. Fever is killing me. Yet im awake. Why? I dont know. Hari raya is coming up. Somehow there's no impact. And im waiting my brother and his wife to come back honeymoon. So much to tell. Hah. Unlimited sms is driving me typing all day long(:

Anyway, i hope things get better than they are now. Not did i say things are fine, there are not. But im just trying to get my head up to catch some air, and trying my best to stay alive. These sceneries aint that nice to see. So i wish it end now. The talks and stuff. Something is bothering me. And Bee ask me to find the courage to speak it out. I dont know. I know how it feels you see. & i wish things are same on the other hand like other wishing for it too. My story line are written not the way i wanted, it's god will. If this what god written for me, might as well i live through it and make sure im having the best time of my life, right? So thats what im gonna believe in now.


Sins, are meant to be forgotten and meant to be reflected on. A life lesson to be learnt. I fall for your trap, Ass. So had to figure, so i give up. Moving ahead, smiling. Yes, i can do it. Telling myself that everyday. Its like giving up that for the better future. All i can nothing. But even if one day, things get better, would i go for it too? Smacks. No, dinah think straight. Dont look back. I need motivation. Some are lost. Helpline needed. I need sleeping pills now. This is an issue for me


Highlighting? Not? Still thinking.


"I shall search for the one who loves the way i am, inside and out. The one who shares my thoughts. And loves just the way i am. Because i just realize, changing your own self to impress others just gonna hurt you even more. And one day, when you look into the mirror, you cant recognize yourself. Then you began to regret and reflect and sighing even more than ever"

Love, D

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