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HOP PULSE & Videoshoot

I know why families were created with all their imperfections. They humanize you. They are made to make you forget yourself occasionally, so that the beautiful balance of life is not destroyed.

With all that, im living my life like an ordinary teenager. Im reflecting myself on what weaknesses i had in me and whats lacking me. Lately, so much been bothering. I swear. Ive not been sleeping well like i use to. Sigh. My eyes are numb. Sigh again. But with all that, my pillars are there though. Im thinking back all the past. And you like slapping it in my face and just walk away. Thanks alot uh. Stains. Again, sigh. I hope mum is alright. Im so worried. SO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT.

Well, my sickness getting better? nope. I think it just got worst yesterday. I dont know. With this and that, i couldnt care less about others. Im so dissapointed in alot of people. So dissapointed. How stupid can i be to even trust you and believe in you all. How dumb can i be to even let you go and not saying a word about it. Im happy for you though. Still, i dont want this anymore. Call yourself man of the family. Please. Im digusted. Boys and men are getting even more pathetic and much more a liar. Im so blind and so numb that i knew its going to happen, why can i push it off or even help to stop it? Even so i knew whats going to happen, i still let it off. Maybe because i really want to get over it even with this much emotions in me. Slap me in the face again. Again. And again. Repeating. Fcuk. Im just emotionally exhausted. Im ashamed of whats there upon me. I just want a better life. A ordinary life which i can smile all way through without anything bothering me. Oh please god. Enough is enough. Pour some miracle for once. Everytime when i thought, things are going smoothly, the next second, it turn out to be the worst.

However, i know this incident and this life experience will make me a stronger person and human being inside out. I hope. For once, i hope i shall get my goodnight sleep soon. So in that case, those who experiencing the same thing, do call yah. So we shall, talk all night and share our same fate. What can i say. I do miss alot of humans. And i do miss you. Your words are enough to push me away from you. & i will stay away from all this horrible memories. Thanks for everything man of the family. And whoever out there. Sigh.

Sorry. This is a very emotional post. Dont like it, then move on.

"Build a bridge, get over it"

This the uphills im going through. I just want to go on and live my life.

Dinah perry.