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Thursday, April 9, 2009, 10:22 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONYET!
sharilah siregar binte p.s
i love you so much; akak.
thank you for everything you've done.
hope everything goes as you wish and plan for syg.
hope you smile more than ever.
laugh more louder than ever.
& insanity always.
i know you expect your birthday to be much more better that you know who.
i try hard kak.
anyway; you've turn 18.
and you may go clubbling already.
and you already are old old old old old.
& since you are no longer underage to smoke;
dont start smoking! i kill you!
anyway;
old woman, drink anlene. good for bones(:
takecare akak. i love you.
enjoy the movie marathon with the rest today.

love your babygirl;
dinah.

ENDLESSLY
i kept on saying im okay
just trying to be positive where else deep inside;
im dying slowly.
not a word can describe what i felt.
i cant simply find the right word.
i kept everything inside;
im afraid to just share what i feel.
is my happiness a pretend?
i am not sure.
in times it is.
why? dont ask.
hurt.pain.grief?
jumble all up.
i need alien.
no link.
i just do.

eventhough;
sighing harder.
i miss you.
random.

TODAY:
simplyy bore shit fark.
its true.
i didnt attend school. apparently my migraine is bugging me again.
it gets worst. i woke up at 1pm. 12hrs of sleep. the longest sleep. not really.
but its long.my head is so heavy. i cant open my eyes. its keep on banging banging.
& add on to that is my parents nagging. i felt shitty. my self-esteem is 0 percent.
i hate myself today. i never hate myself before. i did not feel special no more. i felt like trash.
sorry for the emo crap. this is the post where emo again falls to. i dont know.
i just need somewhere to unleash it. i feel the missing in my heart again today.
why? again dont ask lah. how should i know. remembrance.
i hate it so much. i want to erase my memory. only remember my friends and family.
idiot me. after i woke up and had my bathe, i bath for an hour. my mum was like 0.0.
i love warm bathe(: good for my migraine okay! then i ate watch tv.
it was bore. i was sick. everything didnt fall into place somehow.
moodswings. but i didnt show it. my mum had one too.
all i know mummy was sad. i was sad too.
how i wish i can make things better for my mum.
get her things she wants. make things goes as she plan.
im just too sad again. im sorry mummy for the burden i cause.
then i met hetty.
i was an hour late. sorry baby,
we went window shopping at Lot 1.
talk things. and sat at subway.
SERIOUS i thought of eating subway;
to tell you something; i am afraid to eat subway cause is not halal! im a good girl okay.
not like some ppl think he is good boy*winks. lol.
anywhoos. i miss sdk and school.
i miss lily and abdul.
yes i do.
they make me smile okay! so yes.
chat with several people minutes ago.
i chat with syg bee, hot zimah, sexay weween,
afiq nora(lol), abdul and wano.
thanks afiq for listening to my probs.
BEE*winks birthday coming nmpk.
WANO stop the smoke. YOU CAN DO IT.
ZIMAH & WEWEEN: ehem ehem.
ABDUL: accompany me go doctor. i scared.
lol,
there you go; its my horrible thursday.
lucky? aint that so.
p/s i miss you;
pantat.

YOU'RE NOT SORRY-TAYLOR SWIFT
All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

2.15am
10april09: SASHA's birthday
currently; tuning in to: moving mountains -usher
looking at some one's pictures.
remembrance again. whoa!
smack me.
i need sleep; if not wano smack me.

sushi sushi.
i love you sushi.
with the powder spice on top of ya.
spicy sushi.
sayang kamu.
-_-

sial to syiq. put my ugly insanity video at dance prac.
damn you! *throw wasabi at you!
grr

ended this with tripping feeling;
note: be happy tomorrow.
deedee;

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