Just for your entertainment.

Back to Start; love
waiting was the hardest. im sorry if i ever hurt you.
reason for being that way. i had doubts and i was scared to be hurt and hurt you. i all i wanted is to see you smile everyday.
opening my heart was the risk i taken. i was in confusion in everything. everything doesnt falls to place as i wanted it to. with my problems adding on. i feel sucks and demoralize.i thought by moving on would make you happier. now; im still stuck here. the attempt fails. i dont know why i have this feelings.i couldnt control it. i wish i could. i swear. yes i said it before letting you go was the hardest. i fall for you right from the start.
you are a whole. special in your own way somehow. words by people that hurt me. but im stll clinging to you.
i dont know why. im sorry. i miss you alot. smack me. wake me up from this hurtful tale. i wish it is all a dream. somehow;
i wanted you by me. i wanted to be the one who can help you and listen to you. you can talk all day long even without me talking; you can make my day. i want to share with you the whole part of my life, somehow i thought you are the one i was waiting.
how foolish i was. i aint that everything boys one. im not perfect. i know i aint that pretty.
but what im trying to say here; i cant let go of you im stuck in love wit you even more day by day.
with every song i hear just remind of you.
i hope you understand, why not start from fresh.
yes this is for you.
usher; i do care & love.
sexiest.

TODAY:
school was a total fine.
just im kinda missing somebody.
so lily thank you for listening.
and also fidd.

things are so different now;
friendship.
when you thought it will last.
look on the other side;
it was crash.
i was badly hurt my friends.
to see you guys acting this way.
im in the middle again.
why this happen?
why change the minor to a major unreasonable thing?
misunderstanding.
ITS JUST MINOR! listen.
why our few years of friendship end this way?
why do you people ignore each other?
arent we called best friends.
my head was not in the right place.
i pretend to smile.
im thinking how to put us back together with lily along together.
i love you best friends. i want the old us back together.
its hard for me to go here and there.
Rafidah,Abdul,Farahin,Yani.
heal us back.
i miss us.

then went back home;
watch mimpi manis.
indonesian sinetron.
somehow i like it alot.
the girl remind me of a girl i dislikes.
haha. lol. and the guy HOT.
im gonna watch it now.
aunty; dont take back the disc until i finish watching all episode.
i love it.
i know i kinda late to watch it.
some have watch it long time ago.
(:

im staying.
are you moving?
answer me.
one thing i can say;
i promise i'll be here,waiting forever.