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STARTING FROM NOW

I woke up suddenly i felt like i need to do something.

Before things get a little rotten.

Thats when i got this tingle mingle feeling of difference & changing.

People around me are different.

i felt scared & frightened.

Too frightened;

i want to burst in tears.

But it is just numbness.

Not more not less.

So rough & tough.

I wondered why im down.

Stumbling.

but not because of the usual stuff but;

the ones i knew for long that change.

the ones who said forever.

I have so much regrets in life right now.

Regrets.

Alot to elaborate.

but i couldnt find the right word.

I wanted things to be better;

i swear.

even it means that it doesnt involve me in it.

Or even it means my toe get cut off or something.

Sometime it doesnt seem fair.

Why must my love one drifted a little away?

when im now needing them;

here.

Change.

Huge word.

Bad & Good.

Rotten.

i dont know.

i feel so rough down again.

im thinking three years from now;

are you guys gone?

things gone alot better?

things hasnt going to the flow yet.

all i know;

im looking forward to a better self.

with better guidance maybe.

p/s: where are you when i needed you?

So hence.

i tell myself to move forward.

ignoring all obstacle ahead.

TAKE RISK DINAH.

its like eating popiah veggie without the sos.

& imagine the taste.

lol?

no link.

precisely.

my head have been spinning for days.

Too confuse.

Too cramped.

Too much that i feel like knocking my head on the wall.

SUMMARIZE: i want to be happier again.

down; you hit me hard

so i'll be perming my hair.

most probably.

CAUSE wano thinks i will look like taylor swift or Vanessa

Fanatic HSM nye wanrotnai!

dont ask what it means.

lol.

Or the pussycat doll lead singer.

haha.

no lah.

i look so DIFFERENT!

OR I'LL BE REBONDING?

confusion.

paranoid shitt.

or mayb soon my fringe will be bangs.

wth.

ignore everything i said.

CHANGING FOR THE BETTER.

moved on.

DIET has also begun

but oh so hard

i eat alot!

wanna challenge!?

ignore my crappiness

Its true.

i eat less portion.

BUT TRYING TO KEEP IT BALANCE.

& healthy.

i will soon head off to gym more often.

Need to find gym partner.

Syiq?

haaha.

GYM equals 5 minute from my house.

yays.

tomorrow recess RESTRICT ME FROM EATING friends.

muhaha.

& again with april fools.

So no one had fooled me yet.

ALL FAILED.

im clever you see.

-_-

31 MARCH 09:

summarize: BORE.

but oh so to the gay boys rumors that is spreading at our school now.

hahha.

that one.

LILY & ME SHARE THE COMMON GOAL.

to laugh at the two gay boys.

& prove was given

well.

eew.

i will not elaborate on that topic.

I FEEL LIKE KILLING JINXIANG!

haha

dont ask me why.

KAMARUL;

kau disgusting.

CAMPAK BATU PAT KEPALE KAU!

lol.

"It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best
I know it is
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand

I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you