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I then sat alone here.
Get some soul searching done.
What soul i found.
im empty by seconds.
I stared to blank air.
Im thinking whether i deserve everything that tumbling down upon me.
sometime i think i deserve better.
Problems i come to face.
& im blurred towards it.
ask why?
i dont know.
sometime i felt running away alone.
to somewhere peace & beautiful yet cool.
Being Happy is what i am scared off.
Afraid might taken away.
Blank emotions; i prefer.
feel nothing & numb.
sad nor hurt.
I am still struggling myself to breathe.
Stay alive.
not that i think of suicide.
im not.
Suicidal thoughts are crap.
what for dying if life isnt in the right path?
Sometime i wish things would go as i plan.
But i know it doesnt work that way.
Emotions blend.
too much emotions that have made me fallen real weak.
it made me sad & blue; though.
Wishing in times i could get things done more easier.
Im dealing with everything;
kinda on my own.
But i know there are alot people around me going to catch me when im falling.
These is so hard.
whatever circumtances;
in my freaking large head with small brain;
droning words like STRONG & PATIENCE.
heads-up & cheer up.
This words are drilling in me.
trying to be the best of me & myself.
TRYING.
it will breakthrough one day(:
hopefully.
CHEERY is good.
Being around people i love is better.
forget about the stuff i need to pressure on.

& 250209
was a sick & numb day.
feverish & sore
Sneezy & shit.
i ate 3 Mcmuffin burger.
5 sardines puff + 1 Curry puff.
A plate of French fries.
Cookies n cream Ice cream.
Oreo peanut butter + chocolate cream; 4 packets.
Mee rebus.
& few scoops of rice + curry.
-_- great appetite for a sick person.
too stress.
CUT DOWN IN EATING DINAH.
or i will grew fat.
+ ada pandangan indah; jurong island at stomach.
lol!
shish.
I simply love food.
in love with it.
plus i didnt go school;
but Fidd called me & told me i pass my Social Studies.
i was like whoa.
its that a dream.
Social studies i barely pass.
then now i pass?!
hakh. miracle.
But now i plan to SHINE in humans + any subject got to do with numbers.
i hate numbers.
Somehow i hate english.
Because of the HUGE SMELLY teacher.
who literally every lesson insulting us.
& fail us somehow unneccessarily.
BOOSHIT.
blaming the previous teacher that didnt taught us properly.
excuse me.
i somehow didnt have problems in english.
until now you've made me think twice.
SO now im back to reading.
& practicing perfect tenses.
searching for good vocabs-_-' sigh
Effort again.
Usually i do not have time to read.
Not during Sec 1 and 2 moments;
reading was loved.
until sec 3 when i get busier.
i love reading.
it makes me endulged to it.
making me feel like im in another world.
same as watching movies.
Love & romantic ones especially.
Or wars ;
haha.
i love watching war-like movie.
+ romantic comedies.
crafted smile.
(heard that before anyone)

so that was it(;
deedee
i miss my unknown ultraman.

1.58am
260209
currently: just blogging.

p.s i miss sasha.
p.s.s zimah i hope you are okay(:
cikgu siti habibah is loved (:
I miss SDK & Hetty.
not long after;
kak weween going IMH.
ive taken the application form & yet i make effort to call them;
checking whether they have vacancy(:

+ watching britney's documentary
>needless to say.
i love britney now.
words are strong & pierceful
made me all teary.
shish!
She is strong afterall that crashes onto her.
i admire that!