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Saturday, February 14, 2009, 9:49 AM

(got f' problems in uploadin' photos)
Valentine's.
i started my day with my F'ing CCA.
I woke up at 6.00am.
& wish myself valentine's day.
weird; i know.
pathetic too.
Though i called my cca F'ing;
it turned out to be rather awesome.
acpt for the part where i got my super cramp at my stomach.
i bare the pain.
really.
After ncc;
i planned to go straight home & sleep.
Or just eat & eat.
In the end;
i ended up at lot 1 with Abang ayim & Akak sasha.
with SDK.
Ate LJS.
i got cramps again,
i didnt want to eat.
wanna safe money.
planning to buy clothes.
but then devils' whispers and forcing me to eat,
(Devil= Sasha & ayim [hasutan syaitan untuk membazir duit])
shish. Farahmon cannot take the hunger;
she stood up with alot of frustration because we were like consider fighting about buying food.
childish but cute.
i knoww.
tsk.

After all that;
sasha & ayim fought.

Then; sasha & Yani went to my crib.
Actually sit OUTSIDE my crib.
lols.
at the lift area as my lift area if kinda spacious.
then we talk.
listen to awesome songs.
that made few of us kinda missing what we usually had and stuff.

i didnt know how to celebrate it; on valentine's
or i didnt know i can last & stand strong on valentine's
really;
i made it through!
hooray.

& i was pretty lucky not to see many couples.
haha.

i was so sure that i was tired;
literally my eyes were like,
HALF-close during ncc training.
i had 2 hours of sleep. and still i didnt doze of when i was talking to my cadets.
haha.
imagine that.
&i got panda eyes.
BOO!

Then i was sound asleep. from 6-8.30pm
harharh.
tired.
i then revise my biology;
while waiting for my sis to stop playing the computer.
[she has turn 11yrs old on 15 feb 09]
but my sis still skeletor.
small & crazy.
FULL of emotions & temper.
hhaa.
Yet; sweet & sensible.
>alamak; need to buy her present.
she was like bugging me since last week.
tak tahu malu'
haha.

& my dad bought a chocolate cost $6.95 for each of the family members.
it is very small like the size of snickers times two. hees.
but WHOO.
it got me high & happy.
yay.
sedap; buy me again can?;
roslan.


& i did draw myself a flower.
each petals i put my mission & dreams.
i tried to do 3D .
ended up;
i shall not describe it.
horrid scene.
then i draw a heart. lawa. i didnt even have the time to pictures of it;
my drink on it.
and tore it.
bull-shitt uh.
&
i told you; i figure out something to do.
Overall;
Valentine didnt turn out that bad;
maybe i didnt see couples that much.
but i didnt expect i'll be smiling.
& i did.
BabyThinker; hope you had fun today:) winks winks.
BabyLove; everything will be alright,kak.
Abang ayim: seriously; i didnt side anyone.
i wont be bias.
sasha; as far i can see;
love you more than ever.
i dint know you that long.
i cant judge you; & this one im right.
sometime;abang.
things should be more relax.
& not always tense.
example;
you are angry at sasha because she didnt walk with you at bugis.
maybe the place was crowded & hot.
she needs space too.
do take time to think why.
& not always go what you dislike & feel.
relationship; sacrifices.
Trust & loyal.
always be there; means not literally stand beside you
held your arms 24/7
always be there ; can just give a simple note in her handphone or just one kiss on her cheeks.
let her have her own space.
trusting her that she can stand for herself but never to let go fully.
Sasha; is the type who loves to mingle around and have social life more.
She loves to be in groups than be in twos.
She is afraid if she went out with groups and you are there,
you'll react like you were in bugis.
saying she never entertain you.
or never smile at her friends.
She wants you to be part of the group but not apart.
& about music is universal.
yes; it is.
everyday we listen,
everywhere.
yes.
but Different people loves different type of genre.
she never mention about hating that song you ask her to listen.
you passed her the huge headphone with fantastic loud volume.
& giving her to listen kinda ROCK song
She will then react differently.
Listen to RnB & Hiphop
& listen to rock.
is a huge difference.
rather shocking & more hard towards the ear.
she may not be use to it.
her reaction is not to insult your passion or music industries.
is what she react when she is shock to listen to a style she doesnt listen eveyday,
I know abang; you have made most of us happy.
& yeah. we do love you too.
To tell you the truth;
i have known you for fours days before you went to brunei.
4 days + 2 weeks +2days(eve valentine & valentine)
i have known sasha for 4 years.
i know what she eats how she reacts & stuff
she mayb harsh at times
& didnt realise anything .
She look fierce but her heart as soft as tou fu.
(bnyk2 tou fu)
i know.
how you feel.
but to me you rather to tense up & sensitive.
once in a while things got their own boudaries
& need to chill and relax.
Well;
you two having been fighting over some small issues lately.
SMALL
TINY
issue.
can turn into a fight.
what is this,
you guys need to be more understandable.
REALLY.
& because of music industries to dance industries.
you fight.
&because sasha said that the song was noisy& loud.
it is SO ridiculous.
Abang; you should know yourself better.
you exprienced things more than me.
im only 16.
&you are 21.
these kind of things should not be the reason why you broke off.
Im sorry abang for not able to msg you or console you when you are in need.
Im sorry; i hope our relationship as abg and adk will not break off.
I do care but these kind of matters & reasons you are fighting.
i rather not be bothered.
cause it is very easy to settle & you guys picked the ahrd way.
i Dont know what to say.
& with these you have broke my birthday present.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING'
long enough?
shish shish shish.
today either go dance workshop
or just plain window shopping.
or sit at home.
yeap.
Zimah; lets make her boogy woogy yeah?
Deedee;
those valentine thorns got stuck to that fatty arse.
ish.
& soon i walk the new shoes with grace.
18 Feb SDK + hetty.
(:
2.53am
15February2009
currently: chatting with fate.